weight on my mind

Was fine about hubby hiding the scales yesterday and I should have been fine this morning. I broke the habit of weighing myself everyday ages ago, as I used them yesterday logic says I should have been fine this morning and not even noticed for a few days. But I felt really itchy that I couldn't check today especially after last nights dinner which was Haggis, Mashed tatties and neeps, mushrooms and onions cooked in Whiskey and  gravy.. with a glass of red wine.... and a chocolate to follow. All in all I didn't do to badly as far as the plan is concerned only one syn over so no big drama and I didn't feel guilty, quite happy in fact as it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. But its the first time I have gone over my allowance of anything  and I think that is why I really wanted to check this morning.

I would like to say it got better as the day went on, but I have had been extra careful with what I ate and just want to weigh myself. I'm kidding myself I would be fine if I just weighed once more as I know the next day I would want it again. When I put it like that it sounds like some sort of an addiction - but I didn't need them all the time when I *knew* they were there. I'm hoping these feeling lessen over the week.

I shall focus more on my lovely pictures. I have been thinking more about all the photos I am taking of my food. It is helping me so much and I'm not sure why. I wonder if there is a bit of aversion therapy going on as well the more I look at pictures of the food the less scared I am of it. In fact I would go so far as to say I'm pretty proud of it all which is another very pleasant change

Breakfast was a triumph today it looks so decadent but is so good. Very odd making pancakes out of yogurt and porridge and eggs, but it works well. I just need to get better at turning them. I plan to have the rest of the pancakes with yogurt and berries for tomorrows breakfast.

Dinner was a vegetable and bean soup, very simple and very tasty - I spent some syns on a slice of fresh bread to dip in it as well. So funny weighing a slice of bread but I had no idea what to allow for it as it was an uncut loaf!




So all in all the way I am feeling about food is improving... but the way I am feeling about my body is worse due to not having scales and feeling out of control. I need to focus on the fact its the food that gives me control not the scales. This feels like an impossible challenge right now.